Am I Ambitious or gritty? Hello 2016!

A friend asked me last December what were my favorite quotes or slogans… one of my answer was  “It’s smarter to be lucky than it’s lucky to be smart.”  Now, I realized that perhaps it made me someone like ambitious, gritty, or a trying hard gal?
I got that quote from  Samurai X or Rurouni Kenshin and I believed it helped me to stay humble,  resilient,  appreciative and passionate in life. I learn to embrace that I’m not artistahin, genius, and rich kid…at kaya kong aminin na hindi ako magaling especially sa grammar. BUT it doesn’t mean I’m pathetic. In contrast, I developed the mindset that if I want something I have to work hard to make it happen.
It’s not easy huh, especially if (in your face) you encounter people who get they want in easily. I remember the time that I cried in silence because I got 3.5 prelim grade in Mathematics when I was in college. That time, I was in a star section, in danger to stop from studying, and I felt that I am an outcast for being a poor boyish gal. And believe me, since birth Math was like a curse in my student life… But I managed to get 1.75 in midterm and my professor specially praised me for that.
Sometimes, I feel that I also become weird  ambitious lady. I do hassle tasks that make me look loser, haggard, and poor that if someone don’t believe that I’m okay, I’ll understand them wholeheartedly. Yung totoo? Masakit yun and it feels like my works are worthless.  But what I’m trying to think is I become loser  whenever I belittle myself and don’t practice self-discipline. At the end of the day our biggest enemy is ourselves  ( like Gen. Antonio Luna said)
But why despite of external and internal factors, I stick with my life goals?  Am i Makulit? or

Do I have grit?

I learned Angela Lee Duckworth‘s research and TED Talk about the key to success is Grit through reading  Rappler‘s article about the factors why Pia Wurtzbach won  in 2015 Miss Universe pageant. I honestly, asking myself  now if I have Grit that Duckworth‘s research shared.  Yes, I left jobs, had unfinished businesses, and perhaps, dissatisfied comrades.

Credit: Hoshilandia.com
Credit: Hoshilandia.com

I have so many doubts in my past decisions, but one thing is for sure I never regret or stay regretful because I believe I’m just trying to reach my  dreams -whether they’re impossible or elusive.

If you ask me If am ambitious, yes because I’m  a Capricorn. I can’t really find logical reason other than that. I don’t even know exactly the foundation of my courage. If it’s about my support system, well it is scattered that it’s hard to say it’s strong and solid.  So I end up telling myself- it’s because of my faith.

Going  back to  Grit… I believe it’s true based  on my experiences and I hope I become grittier in good ways this 2016. Duckworth shared, IQ, talent and looks- will not make you a successful individual. Your self-control  grit or continuous passion and perseverance that make your dream become a reality.

About my favorite quote, I connect it now with Grit.

HAPPY NEW Year Everyone!!!

Note: dapat  FB status lang ito e,  napahaba kaya i-blog na yan.

What I Want for my New Year is…

Diary and PlannerExcited ako sa bago kong planner na sobrang trip ko kaya kagat-labi kong binili. Sakto lang din kasi ang design ( pang-blogger) at mas marami akong malalagay ( data entry ang peg).  Ang kaso hindi ko alam bakit less than 10 lang ang wishes ko this year  at parang pare-pareho lang.

2015 New Year Resolutions

Nagda-diary pa rin ako ( Ang Diary ng Cute o Ang Diary ng Kuripot?) at pinilit kong gawing ten items ( hilig lang sa countdown) pa.  Isa rin kasi sa effective strategy for me ay wag i-pressure ang lahat nang maisip dahil ka-stress at kalula lang.  Tama na ang one at a time then ‘pag finish saka ka lipat sa isa pang gawain at goals.  Share ko lang din yung ibang  New Year Resolutions ko ( pang diary sini-share?)

  • Be cool  sa timing
  • Be Beautiful all the time – wala akong arte sa katawan so level up sa arte at landi
  • Be Expert – I realize na hindi lang sapat na may alam ka, kung gusto mo ang isang bagay o larangan aralin mo talaga.
  • Loosen up – this apply sa social interaction, pride and pressure ( please refer to second paragraph)
  • Follow Healthy diet/  routine-  Gusto ko na ang figure ko ngayon ( di payat at di mataba) pero… yung season sa mukha ko ay Tag-Yawat!  Ganda ng fez ko at least five years ago pero dahil sa kakapuyat, stress, at anik – waley!  Saka I miss ata yung pagiging morning person ko ( nangyari nga ba yun?)
  • Reply promptly –  Isa sa bad trait ko sa communication and technology ay wala akong sense of urgency minsan sa pagsagot sa email,text at message sa social media.  Parang di ko alam kung bakit nabasa ko na pero nakakaligtaan ko sumagot. Sa akin , hindi lang puno ang inbox pati na draft. Eh di madalas may negative effect yan like akala ng kausap mo galit ka, di ka interesado, at isa kang malaki Tse! sa buhay n’ya.
  • Be neat and organized – hindi ako proud dito pero tried and tested ko na nakakapag-isip at trabaho ako sa magulong set up ng desk ( alibi daw ng mga creative people). Pero hindi naman sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay nag-iisip at nagtatrabaho ako di ba? so para sa mas maayos na buhay at para tantanan na ako ni Nanay nang dialogue na ” kuwarto pa ba ng tao ito?”…lalagyan ko na lang ang pinto ko ng Beware of Alien, chuz!
  •  Learn to Let Go – May kinalaman din ito sa sinundang item. Ang hirap maglinis kapag di mo ma-…

let go yung bagay na akala mo importante pa, iyon pala ay dumi na lang sa buhay mo.

drama pa! usapang paglilinis pa lang yan.

  • Read more books and magazines –  para sa kapakanan ng utak kong kulang ata sa exercise at saka na-inspire ata ako sa friend ko na may goal na  to read 100 books in a year.
  • Believe in Love and possibilities – Yung issue ko sa Love  ay ocean deep so it’s hard to swim that hohoho pero yung possibilities may kinalaman sa pagiging open-minded.

Birthday Wishes

Malapit na ang birthday ko (clue: month of January hohoho) at ewan, I don’t know what I want to have or to do.  Pero parang trip kong makipag-date or mag-travel kaysa bumili ng gadget (sana may magregalo na lang ng tablet, printer with scanner at solar panel).  Pero may naiisip pa ako, gusto kong i-dare ang sarili ko na mag-Vlogging, yung pakapalan ng mukha na kumanta, sumayaw, mag-monologue etc.

Kung trip mong bigyan ako ng gift – donate  ka na lang sa aking campaign for Habitat for Humanity

Wala pa man yung eksaktong gusto ko para sa sarili ko- siyempre ang prayers ko para sa akin, sa pamilya, mga kaibigan ko at sa inyo ay Good Health, Peace, Love and Prosperity!

Belated Happy New Year and advance Happy Birthday to Me.

Me: Self, thank you!

Self: Thank  you tayo kay Lord!